It’s been a tough time of late and I wanted to share an update for everyone who has been so incredibly kind and loving since my beloved Krumpet passed away.
It’s still raw. It still hurts. And I still miss her, desperately.
I’m a little lost in the aching memories of the last sad few days we had together and it endlessly hurts my heart. I long for the days when I can look back on the happy times and for the memories of my girl to bring me smiles instead of tears.
For me I felt that it was important to pay tribute to Krumpet and I’ve done this in a few special ways. Each of these things has been necessary, helpful and has proved to be a big helper in slowly healing my shattered heart.
With only a couple of old photos on the fridge and none on the walls, my first task was to create a collage of Krumpet photos. I knew that looking through her photos would be painful so I turned my attention to finding the right frame. My initial thought was plain white but when I came across a bright and colourful collage, I just knew it would be perfect.
It took a while until I was able to do so but once I mustered up the courage, I sat down and sifted through 11 years of memories, captured in pictures. Even though I couldn’t fit all my favourites photos in the collage, I’m still really happy with the result. It comforts me to see her pretty face on the wall everyday.
Another personal tribute was this fabulous memento on the inside of my wrist. A friend recommended a local tattoo artist and I sent her a few photos and then we worked together on getting it just right. I love it – it’s the perfect likeness of Krumpet, even down to her green eyes and pink nose.
Note: I’m certainly not suggesting that everyone should go and get inked whenever they go through a tough time. This was incredibly personal and meaningful for me and has been an important part of my healing process.
After much searching, I also found a simple kitty statue to place at Krumpet’s grave in Ma’s backyard.
And it’s not just the things that I did – the love, support and kindness of those around me has helped, too.
One friend made a generous donation to an animal adoption agency on behalf of Krumpet. Another friend gave me a beautiful silver bracelet with a ‘K’ pendant. I feel so lucky to have been surrounded by so much kindness, with the love beaming brightly at me so I could see a way to scramble out of the darkness and start heading towards the light.
Writing about it and sharing my story with you, was also a very important part of the healing process. All your wonderful, loving responses have meant so much to me and I thank you.
I’m grateful for all the beautiful messages, heartfelt conversations and every loving shoulder I cried on.
I don’t think the missing ever stops or goes away. Little, unexpected things remind me of Krumpet and there are days when I feel incredibly sad. What weeks ago seemed impossibly endless, now feels a bit easier to manage. Always loved and treasured, never forgotten.
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